The Wait

I wonder if it will always be like this...

I'm in the hotel room, a couple hours before the gig. Just ate Arby's. Fight Club's on the tube. My wife and kids are hours away by car. I just got a picture on my cell phone of my sons playing.

I visited the venue, and it turns out I'm playing at a small, L-shaped bar. The show is at 10, and I can't set up early. The corner in which I will perform tonight still has tables in it.

I know, in a very specific way, that future success will alter the trappings somewhat, but I wonder if things will be this way in the abstract. Will I always be in a hotel room, alone? Will there always be a movie on hotel-provided cable that I've seen too many times? Will I always find things about the venue to complain about?

I hope not. But in all likelihood...